i'm a pepper!

so, i wasting time taking ridiculous quizzes via facebook and run across one that tells me what kind of drink i am. curious i allow access and complete the quiz, only to discover that i am indeed a pepper. because facebook says so, it is so. i feel better knowing the truth. i'm exciting and have tons of fun. facebook says so. joy!

and i'm spent

i know that its not a matter of whether or not i'm saying what i feel, it all boils down to the fact that i'm not being heard. i'm at my wits end and questioning things i never thought i would. my heart aches and i'm tired of fighting. i'm beginning to think that my feelings don't matter. but damn do they hurt!